It's tough trying to weigh up the monotony of the day to day, and just wanting to get through it some days, and truly making a difference, even if it means sticking out like a sore thumb. Am I wrong in thinking I am the only one experiencing this internal debate? Some people would advise me to just plough on, and others, would say keep shooting for the stars. I want to listen to the latter, but the flow of the stream as it were is firmly dragging me in the direction of the former. So I stand in the middle of the stream, getting increasingly frazzled, and am distracted.
Of course my personality and 'who I am' will only allow me to shoot for the stars, its the vague fuzziness of that, and translating this into concrete promises that I am about to make to the firm that has me nervous.
Am I overthinking this?